Kadang kala aku..~

I feel a bit worried bout my self.

Always make my own decision without thinking others though.

Easy to be friends and make people to love me.

Wonder if someday the one that I love the most gone, lost forever, what will I do ?

Just by saying the words " I Love U" is not enough for me because of the thing that happen past.

Just like a song that Ferhad sang "Pernah". The song that always ring in my mind when I in JK (Jiwa Kacau) mood.

Did I deserve to have something that valuable in my life, but at the very last I destroy it with my stubbornness?

I just need something that can open my eyes and hope I will never say it again.

 I'm tired of hurting.

Hope, someday you will know how much you mean to me, and love me to the end.

Because after that, I will never  find the meaning of true love and hope my heart died a long with time past by my life.

Pengalaman mengajar ku
Jangan mudah meluahkan isi hatiku
Tapi bila ia melamarku
Senyuman ayumu hatiku luas terbuka
Yang kuidamkan musnah
Yang kugenggam terpisah

Aku pernah, jatuh cinta
Kerana cinta diriku merana
Aku pernah bahagia
Kata manisnya buat ku terpedaya

Biarkan aku temankan pilu
Haruskah cinta oh kejam padaku
Uhh yeahh

Kini mula ku terasakan
Degupan hatiku mula rasa oh gelisah
Kehadiranmu ku mengharapkan
Akan menghilangkan kegelapan di hidupku
Kau yang seharus yang pertama
Agar terakhir selamanya

Yang ku lupa, kisah yang lalu
Akan ku gubah oh hidup yang baru... uh yeah...
Kerana aku pernah... pernah yeah...

Kisah yang lama mengajar aku
Agar bahagia hidup bersamamu 

This is what i felt every time that staring at the cloud and stars. Will I ever found something that meaningful in my life. Things that  make me change suddenly, make my heart beat even faster, make my mind just thinking... will u love me.? 

Agar bahagia hidup bersamamu.